My bangs have been long enough to get in my eyes for a while now. Normally, I'd be long overdue to trim back the fringe, but Kitty thinks it looks better when it's this long, so I figured I let them be long again and see how it feels. The issue I have with them at this length is that I habitually brush the hair out of my eyes which leads to an unflattering part. I look terrible with a part... this being part of the reason I went with bangs. Also, my eyes are my best feature, so the thought of long bangs that hide them makes me fear a drastic drop in my visual appeal.
Having said all that, short bangs make me look cute, but I have been itching for sometime to take my look away from open and cute and more towards something a little more brooding and hidden. So, in that case, long bangs would be a step in the right direction. As well, I've had it in my head to try an asymmetrical fringe, so I figure if I'm growing it out this might be a good time to try it.
Now... I typically am not an asymmetrical kind of person (mentally perhaps, but not physically). In terms of visual appeal I generally prefer symmetry in my appearance. But an asymmetrical fringe may be an worthwhile deviation. Afterall, my short curly frames was an accident/experiment/impulse that turned out immensely well. I regularly get comments about how cute/unique/well-suited such an unusual hair cut is on my face. So maybe I'll have as much luck with an asymmetrical fringe?
Worse comes to worse, I can always cut it straight again. :)
I also REALLY want to dye it again.
I've got some cotton candy pink in my bathroom cabinet. >:)
This post is pure vanity. I just really need that sort of moment right now. Something to make me feel cute. An ego/confidence boost in this time of crappy weirdness.
I cut my hair the other day. My hair has been totally asymmetrical since that faithful day when I got one side of my hair caught in a rotary tool and had to cut myself free. The extremely uneven sides have been annoying me. As well... I've wanted to do something with the sides around my face for quite sometime. I had considered cutting my bangs REALLY wide, like I used to, but I've done that already so wanted something a little different. So, on a whim, I cut both sides short -- longer than my fringe, but much shorter than the rest of my hair. At first I didn't like it as my hair is wavy, and at short lengths gets a very strong natural curl. However, it's starting to grow on me. With my hair back it can look very "danish boy" (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
klemrev said I look like a flapper) but I kinda of like how it curls around and frames my eyes. I may let it grow longer and see how it will look just a smidge beyond my jaw line.
Anyways... enough rambling... some pics.
The first is from the other night shortly after I did it... the rest are from today.
OH! Almost forgot... I didn't actually pierce my lip. I just put a dummy ring in so I can get used to having metal there and decide if I want a piercing there or not. Let me know how it looks on me!!
I may also get two rings, instead -- one on each side.
Last night was so much damn fun. I totally didn't even realize I was was on the schedule to spin until a call and a txt a few hours before. Further proof that my brain is not really functioning lately. But, I had a great time none-the-less. I haven't made it out in quite a while.
I was quite happy with my outfit/make-up, even if it was slightly rushed. I have been feeling so good about my body lately, that I opted for a rather revealing top. Unfortunately, I made the mistake of wearing a front closure bra... so a friend had a good amount of fun walking by and popping my bra off. :D
Despite the great music, sexy people, and scandalous ladies room wrestling, I would have to say the highlight of the night was being able to sit down a discuss art/technique with mickey_murder. :)
The first two pics are self-portraits I did before heading out the door. The third is a candid shot at the club taken by nocturnafae.
  Yay for boobies in fishnet!</1> |
Last night was a lot of fun. Not as many came out for the Goth Prom as did for the Halloween bash. BUT, there were a lot of new faces, younger folk. It's always nice to meet the next generation of degenerates and perverts. ;) I was working on about 2 hours of sleep and 4 cups of coffee, so like the spaz I am, I forgot to write down my set list. I know people were asking about the tracks Noisuf-X Hit Me Hard and Faderhead Dirty Grrrls, Dirty Bois... so if a certain track caught your ear, it was likely one of those two. Like I said... I was really out of it. I sort of threw an outfit together. Including a suggestion by klemrev to wear an old bridesmaid dress she bought at the Salvation Army for a few bucks. Unfortunately, the top of the dress wouldn't fit around my enormous chest, so I just tucked it down into the lower part and wore it like a skirt. Another of her suggestions was to add the wings we bought at a Post-Halloween sale. :)I had some pictures taken while at the club (by someone who actually knows photography in and out) so when those surface I will be sure to share them. |
     Iz so Ol'Skool! |
PLAGUE was 17 metric tons of awesome last night!! O.O The vibe was fantastic and the music was good (hats off to Rev. Benjamin Powers, 8-bit, and Chasm!) though the sounds slipped a little off the theme towards the end. But, I, not being a fan of so called old school, didn't mind that at all. I'm a sucker for someone throwing in a little Rage in the middle of a goth-ish set. I get a little tingle between my legs. Not only is there delicious contrast in the juxtaposition, RATM is one of my favorite bands of all time. Their song Freedom makes the Native in me want to kill the Whitey in me. Last night, people were just in a tremendous mood. Like life was good. Or maybe it was just me feeling good and coloring the perceived world around me in shades of awesome. But, I hope that wasn't just my delusion and everyone was indeed on The Up. I was rather bouncy. Bouncing off walls and into people. Tackling. Mock-humping. The works. The thing is, I've just felt so incredible lately. Besides all the usual frustrations, I felt in a state I hadn't felt in... well... to be quite honest I'm not sure I have ever felt this good. I'll ramble more about this in a "friend's only" post... This night, this event, is such an incredible thing for me. A haven of sorts. I don't mean to get all gushy on ya, but after a week of everyone looking at you like a freak (beyond just the gothiness...), feeling very awkward and alone, its nice to have a place to go to be an awkward freak with others. Sadly, the night seemed to go by so quickly. I did a little sketching, nothing fancy. If I can get my camera recharged before I finish this entry I will include a photo of the sketch. I really liked how I looked last night! I was totally rocking the fishnet! And I wore my corset, even though one of the bones is broken and is likely just rubbing around causing damage (to myself or the corset). :\ I thought my make-up turned out okay. I used three different color eyes shadows. A bright purple as the base across my entire lid, and above my lid til just a tick below my eyebrow. I then did a layer of deep red over the lid and a short line out towards my temples, outlined my lid in a dark plum color, and then did another quick brush of the red for more "POP!" I did my lips in two shades of purple, but the effect was not very dramatic. I also lined my eyes and lips with that black gel eye liner that I love to death. I can never do ANYTHING with my hair. It's a curly, wavy, frizzy mess. My hair in these photos is not made-up for old school night. THIS is actually what my hair normally looks like if I don't tame it with any sort of product. Lord knows I could never tease it... I'd never be able to get the kinks out! People always tell me what fantastic, beautiful, thick hair I have, but I think it's a pain in the ass. This is why I usually wear it up, or cover it in falls or something. :) These pics aren't the greatest. The last one I wasn't going to include. I like it because the composition is very different from what I typically do in those quick pre-club photo shoots. However, the angle blows, as it also shows off my ENORMOUS nose! Anyways... good times. :)  Not much of a sketch, just my usual weirdo 'alternative anatomy' thing... |
<lj user="klemrev" and I stopped into one of those "Halloween Stores" to buy some cheapy post-Halloween crap. I picked up some funky tights, two fishnet tops (believe it or not, I didn't own a single fishnet top...), and I actually bought black feather wings. They were cheap, and I figured I'd use them at some point (photoshoot?)... even if feathers are really my thing. :\
The following are some random images I took of various parts of my costume (with the theme "Sexual Reassignment) for the Goth Ball (as I discussed briefly in this entry). It didn't all come together until I got to the club. I ran out of glue to attach the syringes to my thighs and had to go into Walmart (with blood running down my legs) to grab more. And even then, I didn't have time to really get them stuck on there, so most of them fell (or were knocked off) within my first hour of being there.
People were damn impressed by the syringes. I had so many people freak out and ask how I had attached them. O.O
I was pretty proud of my stitching make-up, representing some common "cosmetic" surgeries that many transwomen get (Facial Feminization Surgery, Tracheal Shave, and Breast Augmentation).
( Enjoy... )
HOLY FOOKIN' COW!! Flatline was AMAZING tonight!! O.O
We packed the North Star! It was wonderful to see so many people come out for the event! I spoke with a number of people who were "scouting" the night out for their group of friends, so hopefully we will see EVEN MORE out next time! I felt like I was going to cry I was so happy! :)
I forgot to write down my setlist. Nothing too out of the ordinary to discuss music wise. I spun some Puscifer just because I think the music is hilarious ("This lady got the thickness... can I get a witness?"). Tonight I once again proved that, if you need your dancefloor cleared, I am the DJ to call. Serves me right for breaking the momentum by drifting below the 140BPM line. :\
It was so much fun, but I felt so bad because I was so out of it. I didn't really get sleep the night before, had a rough, long day at work, and then rushed through getting ready (my make-up was not up to my standards) skipping supper in the process. By the time I got to the cafe my brain had detached a little and I spent a good chunk of the night in austic headspace. cheshiretomcat's little one won the costume contest in her adorable GIR outfit. I laugh because when I put the gift basket together, I sort of had someone slightly older in mind. Oh well, I'm sure in she will fit into those Halloween socks and stripey tights in a decade or two. XD
I'm really glad everything worked out. I really needed that uplift. :)
I had such freakin' blast this evening. The Gothic Maine fashion show was incredible. Probably THE most fun event I've had the pleasure of attending for quite sometime. The works of all the designers were fabulous. The skeleton and demon bags forged by chelley81 were absolutely adorable!! The performers who helped add a little extra spice to the event were most delightful.
It never ceases to amaze me how many talented people are part of the goth/industrial/freak/whatever subculture.
I had a fantastic show, a delicious drink, great conversation, and I even got my ass whipped a couple times. In Brynn's book, that all adds up to one fabulous evening! >;)
It was really tremendous to finally meet morbidiqua and jedi. Not to mention actually being able to sit down and have a sorta-kinda lengthy conversation with cheshirebunny.
I actually wore the hair thingies I made last night. The things I was working on til late that exposed me to excessive inhalation levels of spray paint. I thought they were going to be absolutely crap, but once I got them secured in my hair (with about seven chopsticks and an old leather belt that I cut in half) they looked pretty damn good! People were quite pleased with the results.
I kick myself now, because all last night, and all day long I agonized how horrible I thought they turned out. So it was really uplifting to get such a positive response. It's a nice reminder that other people do not view my creations from the same harsh perfectionistic vantage point as I do. It reminds me that I am an idiot, and I probably shouldn't be so hard on myself.
People were totally fascinated by the tendrils. They kept touching them and asking what it was. Originally, I tried to cut up lengths of foam rubber, but after that failed, I went with some foam insulation, as suggested by klemrev - since the insulation was already in the perfect tendril shape.
ALSO, I was really happy with my make-up. I got to try that gel eyeliner and I am in absolutely LOVE with it!! I used a small lip brush (pressed to a fine point) to apply the liner. It went on smooth and I could easily control it. AND it is VERY dark, so I didn't need to do a hundred layers of it. If you are interested, it is L'Oreal's HIP gel eyeliner, Color: black. Definitely worth the price.
And pictures!!! YAY!!
Here are some pics of me just looking hot...
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Here are some pics of the hair tendril thingies I made...
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And here is one of me full length...
( check out my rack... )
Here are the pictures I promised from Friday night!
I think lighter colored eye shadows with very simple black eyeliner with flirty upswings on the corner of each eye, and maybe a little mascara, look best on me. As much as I pictured myself with heavy blackened, "smokey" eyes, I don't think it really looks good I me. I think I can do "cute" better than I sultry.
Also, my fringe in these pictures is at the length I think looks best with my face.
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I put soooo much product in my hair, and it is still frizzy. :\
My hair is not happy about the humidity.
The last picture is kind of stupid... but I was wearing the bolt braclet I made, so I wanted to pose with it. XD
My face has soften so much over these past 13 months. I really didn't realize it until I saw these photos. My chin-line especially has thinned out.
Very, very, very, very happy. :)
My hair has been re-blackened.
Now let's see if I can cram these 6g in my lobes.
I have to look my evilest for NYC.
>:)
The past couple weeks have gone by like a blurr... I'm going to attempt to sum it up as succinctly as possible, if I forgot something, please feel free to comment with further detail...
Plague's B-Day First, Plague's Customer Appreciation night the evening before GFAK was absolutely smashing! The place was quite packed and a good time was definately had by all (as far as I could tell. It was a perfect beginning to a tremendous weekend of gothy goodness! People were quite dancy, and found a few people actually out on the floor during my set! I spun weird stuff, including a Britney Spears remix... remarking to wallyfenderson (aka. DJ 8-bit) that, "It's ironic... I'm the only one with enough balls to play Britney Spears at a goth dance night..." :D |
 A spooky day in the park... |
Goth Fly a Kite GFAK was delightfully delicious! I was absolutly exhausted, not having slept the night before. But I meandered around the park watching all the pretty kites and doing my best to avoid camera (it was a no make-up kinda day). It was so much fun to see how mnay came out. The above picture does not demonstrate the entire crowd for the day. Some people came and left before and after the pic was taken. The turn out was huge, with many wonderful representatives from the lands to the south (namely, New Hampshire and Massachusetts). The sense of community was first rate! The spot where many congregated during a brief rain shower had to be vacated as we were "shoo-ed" away by a wedding party. It was most amusing! BTW, if anyone has a higher res copy of this pic PLEASE LET ME KNOW!! |
 BOA FALLS!! |
Goth Flay a Kite: AFTER PARTY The after party was absolutely AMAZING!! I was soooo damn tired, I swear I almost didn't go, and when I finally arrived, I almost passed out. Obviously the intelligent thing to do (and by that, I mean the irresponsible thing to do) was to start dancing and not stop. By the end of the night my legs were like Jello, and killed me for days to come. The place was absolutely hopping and I was certainly not alone out on the dance floor. I did a sorta, walk on... thing... for the gothic bellydance troupe, Bellibone. And was absolutely shocked when dehuman8 called me to the stage to announce that there had been a collection going around that night to buy Disassemblance a full page ad in the Black Sun Festival" program guide. I was so happy and grateful that I nearly cried. Luckily, I was dehydrated from all the dancing, so not a tear was shed! :DI got huge props for my "boa falls" and a few pseudo-jeers such as "How many Fraggles did you have to kill to make those!" (This particular comment courtesy of wallyfenderson). Unfortunately, I couldn't harvest too much ego from the attention. All I did was basically take a bunch of feather boas I bought on clearance at an art store and tie them to my pigtails. :) |
 The view from the booth...  Kingdom of the Dead... |
Vivid Motion Spring Show 2007 For the past week I've been helping out this spring's production from the local (fabulous) dance troupe Vivid Motion Inc. Typically, the Spring Show is a little more low key, as compared to their INSANELY popular Nutcracker Burlesque. But this year the production was far beyond what they have done in the past! It made for quite a show to squeeze the entire Odyssey into a 90-minute dance performance. Many people who are not familiar with the classic work remarked that they had trouble following the story, which is understandable. But, that aside, I remain quite impressed. I attempted to get a pic from my absolutely favorite scene, Kingdom of the Dead but it didn't come out so wonderous. :\ This Christmas Vivid Motion has an all new show brewing, giving up the Nutcracker for a new kind of adult revelry. Not sure what it is... but I will very likely take part in it. (A chance to show off my new body perhaps?!) |
I keep waffling on whether or not to Ebay my cute little London Underground platforms. I've only worn them out once, because they are a little small and they hurt my toes. However, I hold on to them in the vain hopes that I can somehow stretch them a bit.
I have so few gothy cute shoes that I feel a need to hold onto them for dear life.
They are supposedly a size 11, but they fit more like a 10-ish.
I wish I had tiny cute feet.
And wasn't 6'2"
blah.
    Blue, to match my mood... |
Last night was "Old School Night" @ Plague. I don't really do old school, I will freely admit. I maybe a smidge too young for that era of goth. But the music was decent (if not my personal fav) and it seemed people really enjoyed the vibe. The place was quite packed. Probably one of the busier nights I've seen. Including a ton of new people (or at least new to me). There was a young couple that I talked to briefly at the end of the night. It was there first night there and apparantly there first night in town (guess they just moved to Portland). Unfortunately, the chica was drunk and could hardly stand up on her own. I could quite appropriately say that she was pissed last night.** :( I am still in a crumbly emotional state, so last night I mostly lurked around the club and kept to myself. I missed last week and really didn't want to miss again. Besides the standard black, I adorned myself in blue to sort of matched how I was feeling. Much like in my paintings, I make a strong connection between color and emotional states. You can often read the color of my make up like a mood ring. This is not ALWAYS the case, as I can certainly be in one mood when I select my color while getting ready, and be in a complete different mood at the end of the night. Especially these days. ** I'll explain more in a Friends Only post. I feel a need to say something, but would rather not get into it publically. |
I'm never quite aware of when people are snapping pictures of me. I noticed my Elven friend recently added a photo on her Myspace of me in a very compromising position...
( (Nothing too, sketchy... photo is a little dark) )
That was taken at the Black Light Ball after party at milkgonebad's flat. My Elven friend tied me up and I was not upset in the least. Still waiting for an encore performance...
>:)
   Goth Geisha! |
HOLY JEEBLES!! Last night was so much fun!! I invited some of my very non-goth co-workers out to the club. And they had a fantastic time! They couldn't say enough nice things about the people and the music. Normally they are the types to wander around the drunken, sketchiness of the Old Port**, and they made some very important observations about going to a goth night versus just about every other bar experience:
These are the same things I've always said are definate positives about the scene at large: People are generally respectful, intelligence, entertaining, interesting, and damn creative! And I may have found some converts! They enjoyed themselves so much that they talked about coming back. They promised to try to dress more the part next time, as they felt a little out of place in their blue jeans (I told them to wear black and they would be fine). Sure, they might just be "weekenders," but I say if someone just wants to "play goth" for the night and come out and have fun with us, I see no harm in that. I understand how people can get protective, that "NO! This is ARE THING!!" But, if people are being respectful and playing along (and contributing to the night by paying the cover and buying lots of drinks) then I generally say, the more the merrier. I had convinced another co-worker to come out, but she didn't show (I don't work with her directly, she is a schedular for one of our surgeons). Which made me really sad because this person confessed to me that she "used to be a goth" but, she "grew out of it..." Grow out of it? I don't think so. ;D But perhaps she will be around next time. Last night was apparantly the "Tell Brynn how incredibly awesome she is" sort of night. Which for someone who has trouble taking compliments, it was really kind of weird. It's makes me feel really good, but really umcomfortable at the same time. People really liked my outfit, which made me feel absolutely fantastic! My co-workers (one of which didn't even know I was transgendered, and saw me for the first time last night en femme) said that I looked hotter than they ever could. *BLUSH* People seemed to really like the look of the meat skewers in my hair. I was really happy with how that turned out!! I even glued on my chrome bindi, which I used to wear all the time. I swear, at least TWO DOZEN people asked me "Did it hurt to get that pierced?" (Hehehee... people always assume its a piercing). I had this evil goth geisha look going on! Also, there seemed to be a lot of compliments about my DJin' thrown my way. Which is a huge shock to me (and great compliment), especially when they come from a long-standing DJ in the scene. dehuman8 commented that I have lot's of potential but I severely lack technical skill. Which I have no delusions about, I totally agree with him. He has suggested setting up educational sessions with him in the future to practice the skills -- something I will most CERTAINLY be taking him up on!And then there is the afterparty... something we need not discuss... *shifty eyes* **Downtown Portland, the older part of the city that is closest to the ocean, that has a shitload of bars and drunk people that usuall fill them on the weekends). |
   Picture perfect... kinda... |
Friday was quite groovy! Due to the mix of acts performing, there was this weird mix ofg0fffffffzz and the techno-peeps. And despite the heterogeneous nature of the crowd (and the oil and water like ways they stayed apart) people were generally cool and I think it made for a positive atmosphere. There should be more sub-culture minglers like this. XD I wish I could comment on all the events of the night... but I must admit, between getting their late and speading most of my evening engaged in conversation, drinking and other assorted evil, I can't quite remember most of what went on. ... So, let's just talk about ME shall we? I finally got to wear my Fairy Princess Dreads!! I didn't have time to securely mount them on anything, so just wrapped them in a hair band and threw them on my head (attached to two small claw clips at the top of pigtails) Then I took two purple boas and wrapped those around the base of the falls. The effect was quite colorful and VOLUMINOUS! I felt quite ugly from mutilating my face earlier in the week, so I got a tad more adventurous with my make-up, mostly to draw attention away from the nasty bumps and marks around my chin. I also wore my beloved pink, spiked collar and matching bracelet. Sadly I think I lost my bracelet in the back of my elven friend's car (possibly, along with a dread or two) when I de-gothed after the night was through. :\ Oh, well. :) |
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horny In the pink... |
Last Friday was quite kick ass. I had a fabulous time (as always), and had some tremendous conversations, heard some new inspiring musics, and had a little too much to drink (I was quite silly towards the end of the consumption). I finely got a chance to chat with celtic_faerie13 as she was up from a mystical land south of Portland with her associate, Deftly-D. Speaking with her, with the beautiful sounds eminating from the dance floor curteousy of the associate, really encouraged me to get new musical material finished. I am slowly developing a new appreciation for Power Noise, and must learn not to fear it. For, alas, much of the music I generate is something dirty and distorted, not far from being the kin of Power Noise. But I think I am learning that this is okay...On a far more shallow note, my Manic Panic Pussy Galore (a pink eyeshadow) came in. And it is an absolutely tremendous color! I adore this stuff! I was so excited about my make-up, that I knew I had to have some pink accessories. But, I had none. So I pawed through the pile of belts klemrev had purchased for me to alter, and threw together the collar and braclet set (you see in the photo to the left) in about 10 minutes before rushing out the door. I think they turned out fabulous. However, I fucked up the snap on the bracelet because I thought I was going to get the little tool to install them, but did not. So I have to use a screwdriver to bash the snaps into place. None-the-less, I didn't think I looked too bad, and got plenty of ego boosts from others. I'm sure if I didn't have six-inches of make-up on, my cheeks would have been bright red all night. ;)I also was a little less shy and hiked up my tits to show off a little cleavage. But I'll save more on that (and more revealing pix) for a "friends-only" entry... My elven friend had some fantastic dreads she made from felting the same sort of wool I used to make my most recent falls. I was quite amazed. She has promised to teach me her ways (hee hee ;) THIS FRIDAY YOU MUST GO TO PLAGUE!! We are celebrating Plague's first birthday (NO COVER, BTW!! More cash for drinky-drinky). I will be spinning along with DeHuman8 and 8-bit. If you don't go, I'm going to beat your ass. Hell, I'll gladly beat your ass if you DO go! ;) This past year has been absolutely amazing. I have lots to say about it... how much it has meant to me, but that entry will have to wait as I need to go work on tomorrow's comic. |
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cheerful She's got my hair... I wish I had her tits! ;) |
Well then... my dreads have been quite the hit! I got so many great compliments when I wore them out. I got serious props from experienced fall-makers in the communities/forums where I posted pics. Several people said that they have now started, or hope to start, making their own. As well, my dreads seem to have encouraged artistic formation in a totally different medium! This kick ass drawing was done by Rhen. He is currently in the processes of getting together a webcomic. More on that as it develops. I was saying to Rhen that is was a freaky co-incidence that he drew this "brynn-like" character about to murder a rabbit... as I am currently working on a new musical project I've codenamed BunneyKiller. A logo, if you would like:  O.o Sick minds think a like. ;) |
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